2025-07-15
5 minute journal
Review of the day
Day started off well where I had ~7 hours of sleep and because I did this journal last night I thought I had a solid game plan for priorities and things to do today. However, day was fairly bad after that. In particular because I got into a few hostile meetings with my manager because he didn’t inform me about work being done for products I own. I ultimately felt disrespected and felt like I didn’t have direction. I’m upset enough that I’m considering leaving. I also spoke with my cousin Dave, and half the convo was about him and how tracy now met his parents because his parents showed up outside to a house viewing unnanounced. This was impactful to him because he had mentioned how meeting his parents is end-game and so he’s worried that this progressed the relationship in a way he wasn’t ready. The second half of it was of the challenges with my mum when I went back home this past break.
Things I did well
I created JIRA issues and noted down my thoughts today. I think this is worth mentioning because I struggle with writing down my thoughts and consistency.
Things I could better
Losing my temper and saying silly hurtful things like “isn’t doing anything”, I know better but somehow I keep saying these very general broad stroke statements and it really dilutes my point and is also an asshole thing to do. I should try to avoid these kind of statements.
Top 3 tomorrow
- Finish position paper sketch for work and get another review by Heather
- Reach out to Gerry regarding moving teams process
- Pick out summer party clothes
2025-07-14
5 minute journal
Review of the day
Day was good, woke up at 10am and then again at 1pm trying to sleep more. Spent a lot of the day working on my config and learning more about nix. Didn’t do other things like talking with mom or finishing a work document I said I would.
Things I did well
I did a good job focusing on just the issue with nix and actually making that change in the nix store because I usually hesitate to try that stuff out without fully knowing the solution and background. Amir convinced me to do that, but I liked taking the initiative.
Things I could better
I could have woken up showered and did my morning routine instead of jumping straight into lunch and eating a pizza
Top 3 tomorrow
- Finish position paper sketch for work and get another review by Heather
- Meet with my therapist and go more over the mindfulness practices
- Take a 30 minute walk outside
2025-05-05
- Just starting something somewhere to quickly reflect on my day and write anything down
- Spoke with therapist regarding new work project, and some fears around how it’ll exaceberate my anxious habits
- interacting poorly with others under stress, particularly related to hostility and defensiveness
- not practicing proper self care by not sleeping enough, eating too much junk and not exercising
- insecurities holding me back from seeking help
- Josh had a good point regarding triggers, and catastrophization being one of his, and thinking about it some more it’s also one of mine
- I should write more, always write more
- The nice thing is that keeping this in mind today I had very focused goals that allowed me to achieve quite a few things in the evening
- provided an update to work slack channel regarding today’s progress without worrying to much around perfection
- made and ate proper dinner, ate it in a timely manner
- did a quick clean of the area and put dishes in dishwasher ready for next day to be washed
- brushed teeth + face routine before 11:30pm
- filled up medication box
- took medication around nighttime wind down
- did exercises for my back
- put up a piece of the world wood map atlas I had
- in bed for midnight
- I’m hoping this allows me to enter the next day feeling more prepared and focused
- Would be nice to have goals for the next day and general prompts to think about + time box this so it doesn’t feel like a massive thing
- Maybe an easy goal for tomorrow would be:
- Get 30 minutes of outdoor time
- I’m grateful to see my mom in < 10 days
- I’m grateful to have my own place